Focus on Today
My theme word for 2013 is “Ta-da!!” After reflecting on 2012 and in my readiness to ignite my passions and spark my awesomeness in 2013, I want to have that youthful energy and spread the excitement like a magician or a child showing off – – think Jazz hands! I plan to jump in to the center of the room and say, “Ta-da!” Here I am, here is what I know, this is it people!”
Thank you to everyone who has followed my blog this past year. I am grateful for the important role you have played in my life and I am so glad to have you with me on my journey.
Taking a Look Back
I have been thinking a lot lately of the little girl that I once was. I grew up surrounded by adults. Being the youngest in my family and in my generation, I felt the urge to be grown up. I spent most of my life so far trying to (and succeeding at) being a responsible adult. It took some serious digging into my heart to remember what it felt like to be a fun-loving carefree child. (It wasn’t that hard to recall my teenage and young adult years, where I had fun – but that is VERY different kids!) Thinking about what I was like as a child helped me to determine who I really am. I believe that we are complete and whole from the start. The person I am today started as a seed that has grown and developed with help from all the outside influences. But at the core of who I am, I am indeed that fun-loving carefree child.
I loved playing outside when I was little. I made mud pies. I helped my Dad water the trees and plant seedlings. I loved to swing on the swing on the tree in the backyard. I liked to capture caterpillars and praying mantis and put them in jars. Eventually I would let them go. In the fall, I loved walking through the piles of leaves that accumulated on our front lawn. When it rained, I loved jumping in puddles! I liked to lay in the grass and watch the clouds pass overhead.
I always liked to collect things. When I was very little it was pennies, marbles, sea shells and sand dollars. I had a very large stuffed animal collection and each one had a name and a special place on my bed. I had a few beloved dolls and I cared for them by bathing them, changing their clothes and cutting their hair.
I liked to dress up, especially at Halloween. I always made my own costumes (with Mom’s help, of course!) I remember being Raggedy Anne, a hobo, Dorothy, a flapper, a princess, and a devil.
When I was little my parents traveled and took vacations by car and then later by camper. We camped and fished and went on adventures. They took me to all of the South Western states and we visited family in New Mexico almost every year. We went to Nevada, Arizona, Colorado, New Mexico, and Texas. On other trips we went to the Pacific Northwest. We went all the way up the coast through Northern California, Oregon, Washington to British Colombia, Canada. We also went to Hawaii when I was eleven. I loved those trips and enjoyed sitting in the front seat between my parents so I wouldn’t miss a thing.
We took lots of weekend trips all over California. We spent lots of time in San Diego visiting family. We would shop in Tijuana now and then. Sometimes we went on day trips to Solvang or Palm Springs. I loved walking on the beach early in the morning with my Dad and stopping for donuts on the way back. I would go for a walk with my Mom when we went camping and we would “explore.”
I realize that these are the things that I was naturally happiest doing. My goal for this year is to do the things that naturally make me happy. I am fortunate to be in a place in my life where I have met my goals and I want to keep things the way they are for a while. For now, I will do my best to maintain my home, my job, my relationships and all the things that I love. I will do so with the zest and excitement of the adventurous fun-loving and carefree child that I am at heart.
Please, share with me a memory of your childhood. What were you like? Were you that way for as long as you can remember? Tell me something good. . .