I’ve been thinking a lot about finding my focus. That sounds strange. Finding something which means clarity. If it was so clear, why do I have to look for it? Why doesn’t my focus just make everything easy and attainable? Why does it seem like work? My mind wanders. I get distracted. I decide to clean out my desk drawer instead of finishing that project. Maybe I can think clearer or do better work if my desk drawer is organized. I like markers. Really! I love markers! Apparently I like paper clips, too. There are lots of those in my desk drawer. Now, what was I doing? Oh, yes! Finding my focus. Where did I put it?
I think that when I need to I am able to snap into focus and get the job done. What ever it is, I just know when to buckle down and go for it. When I am determined to do my best work and am happy with the result, I might even do a little happy dance. I might say out loud to myself, “I am really good at this!” I like that feeling. I see nothing wrong with patting myself on the back. Who else would recognize instantly the hard work that went into it? Who else is going to know if it is really the best I can do. Sometimes I surprise myself. I am not sure how I am able to accomplish what I do. Where did that skill come from? Oh yeah, I was focussed.
When we have a clear vision of what we want to accomplish and we get it done, it feels great. But things don’t always go that way. Most likely, a gazillion things happen that either distract or detract from getting to the results we want. But are they all that bad? What if something wonderful results from it? What if losing focus momentarily actually helps me find my clarity? What if I am meant to handle lots of things all the time and what I am searching for is not to be focussed on any one thing, but to do all things with the clarity and energy that I need to put forth to do my very best work?
I believe that giving everything my very best effort, even the small things like taking the time to separate the jumbo paper clips from the mini paper clips, is well worth the effort. It doesn’t distract me from my focus at all. As long as I am doing my best, I can still attain my goals. I don’t like that feeling that nothing is being accomplished. I must keep moving foward. But, I don’t want to stop all the distractions and just be good at one thing. I like having lots of things happening all at once. I’ll know when I need to put more effort into something when the time comes. I don’t need to make a job of finding my focus. It’s all in how you look at it anyway.