This is my reaction to, Journal Prompt – Bright Ideas: Cultivating and Capturing Good Ideas by C. A. Kobu on April 9, 2012
(Holly, That’s all it is, don’t worry!!)
Un-confessions. . .
I’m fat and I am not sorry!
I’m lazy (sometimes) and I am not sorry!
I don’t always pay my bills on time and I am not sorry!
I let my bank accounts go overdrawn. I am not sorry.
I don’t answer my cell phone when it rings and I am not sorry.
I usually don’t listen to my voicemail messages, either. I am not sorry.
I spend beyond my means sometimes. I am not sorry.
I like being a working mom and I’m not sorry.
Sometimes I hate working. Again, not sorry!
I don’t wear makeup and nail polish at all times and I am not sorry about it.
My house gets messy and cluttered and I am really not sorry.
Here is what I really feel about it. Rather than apologizing for things being the way they are, I am going to say what I really mean. I wish I was better at this. I accept myself the way I am, but I sometimes think I should make an improvement. These are my shortcomings, where I fall short of the standards that I would like to see myself achieve. I am not really sorry that things are the way they are because this is me. I like me! I like myself just the way I am. I’m pretty sure my family does, too! I am proud of who I am. I know that nobody is perfect and I do not strive for perfection.
What I value most in life is love, comfort and happiness. That is my wish for everybody. That is what I have been blessed with, in abundance! I am a positive person. I see the bright side of things. I do not know why I have been apologizing about myself and my lifestyle. I have no idea who I am making excuses to, other than my inner voice. I won’t deny my inner voice, because without that prodding I would NEVER clean anything, put on make-up or eat another salad!! These are good things that I do care about. BUT, I AM NOT SORRY!
I am satisfied with the way I look and feel right now. I will continue to make healthy choices and be good to my body.
Let’s replace “laziness” with “resting.” I need to rest sometimes.
Bottom line, I pay my bills.
I need to be more responsible about my bank balance.
The best way to reach me is by text or email. If you need to talk to me or want to chat, the best time to call is on the weekend mornings.
I always find a way to provide my family with what we need and want. It’s what I do. I am careful about not going into debt.
Work is work. It can’t be all rainbows and sunshine everyday! Juggling work, home and kids is a circus act – fun, exciting, entertaining, but like juggling, it can be exhausting and risky!
I want to look my best at all times. I can do this without piling on make-up and going to the salon every week.
My home is a lived in home where my family finds peace, comfort and joy.
“If I was not so busy, I would . . .”
This is the statement that I am truly most sorry for! There are so many things that I want to do creatively, socially, civilly, for and with my family and friends. I often use the excuse that I am too busy. It’s not true. It’s a lie. And I am so sorry! I do get overwhelmed at times and I do have lots on my mind. Most likely, I am resting and playing Words with Friends, or Bejeweled Blast. I will continue to strive to complete my projects and keep my commitments. I will communicate clearly with my family about what my intentions are and continue to post my work on my blog.
Blogging has become important to me. I am meeting wonderful new people and my creativity is thriving. My photography has improved. I threw an amazing dinner party, I decorated Easter eggs, I have been sewing costumes, and building websites. This year has been one creative project after another and I love it! (Singing. . .”I Loooove IT!”)
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